You have to put an end to this game. You cannot enjoy your relationship, you are jealously jealous. Even if you argue that you have not made any special efforts for this, it does not look like that from the outside.
You can get news from the interviews that you have connected with great hopes. You will throw yourself in the bosom of the jobs that are waiting for you, and you will spend the day with them.
Your relationship with money is like the relationship of two foreigners. Your earnings are very satisfactory, the main reason you suffer is being wasteful. But luck with money is always with you.
The information you get leads you in the wrong direction. You have to go back and do a research at the source of this information.